I can't sleep for years, it's a fact - I'm basically fuming because I can't remember the last time I could sleep so well and peacefully.

I started when I was fifteen, with years of late - night crashes, burning in the eyes and the sore throat the next day.

Then I started moving around more, all the good sleep was taken up by some of us.

I remember the last time I had a good night's sleep was when I was about eleven.

I woke up one morning at 7: 00 A. M., feeling energized.

My parents were complaining that I didn't wake them up as usual, but there was nothing strange in their words.

I had slept through the night for the first time.

It felt fantastic.

At least, it felt fantastic until I found out that the last time I'd slept like a baby was when I was six years old.

I'd been suffering from insomnia for three years, with attacks lasting for months and lasting for weeks.

Now, no matter how hard I tried to fall asleep, it never happened.

Something was keeping me from it.

I went to sleep with an idea of writing down all the things that were keeping me awake, but the only thing that came out was a long mess of words.

The more I tried to make sense of it, the more I found it difficult to sleep. :( ;_; 😭😭😭😢😢😢